His Desired

Follow-through: I think it is the hardest form of commitment. Often I find myself excited to begin a project. The passion elevated when beginning can be an adrenaline rush that takes all of you. What makes change exciting and terrifying is that you are willing to give all of yourself to making it work. Then we encounter the exhaustion of learning, the precipice of adjusting, the overwhelming demand to finish. When faced with doing something out of our comfort zone, we retreat. Then our actions do not follow through with our words but fall through. And our words are merely sounds moaned by fleeting emotion. No reliability. No honesty. Soon our inability to complete hinders our integrity, our relationships, our self growth, and even our place in society. When I was preparing for marriage, I told myself that it did not matter how tired I was I would have sex with my husband everyday if that was what he wanted. I was not going to become lazy in my appearance like I had watched so many wiv...

Sometimes I do not know what to write.  I do not know what thoughts to share or how to share them in words that will compel you to read, to know.  Right now I implore you to know how my heart breaks for brokeness.  How my insides quiver in anxiousness for anxiety.  How my feet are heavy for heaviness.  How my shoulders ache for the weights that burden them.  How I cling to emptiness for the sake of being empty.  Only then, while I drown will I breathe.  Inhaling water to fill the lungs that took the breath.  I am no more than the dust you kick from walking down paths not meant for destiny's sidewalk.  Yet this dust has risen.  I live because I died.  I laugh because I mourned.  I am because I was.  Nothing.  A vapor caught in the wind yet I formed.  I am seen through eyes that see.  I am heard through ears that hear.  I am known as child.  Yet I ascended ...

His Desired: Groceries and the Wasted Mind :    Have you ever noticed it is always easier to carry out a task when you have prepared yourself for what needed to be done ahead of time? I...

   Have you ever noticed it is always easier to carry out a task when you have prepared yourself for what needed to be done ahead of time? I work in sales and knew a new sale was starting this week so I familiarized myself with the fine print so as to better sell the products. Last night, my husband was going to make dinner. I went ahead and peeled and cut potatoes because it would save time in preparing the meal and because I know he hates doing that part. Well, today my great task was going grocery shopping. Normally, I am prepared. I clean out the refrigerater. I plan meals. I make lists. Not today. Today I winged it. I got a late start and in my haste to complete everything, I spent and hour at the grocery walking up and down aisle after aisle until I was satisfied with my choices. My head hummed with uncertainty as I questioned if I purchased everything I needed. My nerves were frayed. I drove home. I carried in my groceries and set them on the table. I opened the refrige...